ARGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!


She's a paranoid bitch!!!
A selfish coward!!
A friggin' asshole!!!!


....


It's no wonder she doesn't have friends around for long.

Difference between like and love. Happy reading!


Know the difference between


"SOMEBODY YOU LIKE" and "SOMEBODY YOU
LOVE"


In front of the person you like, your
heart beats faster
But in front of the person you love,
you get happy.


In front of the person you like,
winter is just beautiful winter.
But in front of the person you love,
winter seems like spring.


If you look into the eyes of the one
you like, you blush.
But if you look into the eyes of the
one you love, you smile.


In front of the person you like, you
can't say everything on your mind.
But in front of the person you love,
you can.


In front of the person you like, you
tend to get shy.
But in front of the person you love,
you can show your own self.


You can't look straight into the eyes
of the one you like.
But you can always smile into the eyes
of the one you love.


But when the one you like is crying,
you end up comforting.
When the one you love is crying, you
cry with them.


But the feeling of love starts from
the eye.
So if you stop liking a person you
used to like, all you need to do is
cover your ears.


But if you try to close your eyes,
love turns into a drop of tear and
remains in your heart forever

Self Conclusion - The Spill Canvas


"Fade in, start the scene
Enter beautiful girl
But things are not what they seem
As we stand at the edge of the world."


Excuse me sir,
But I had plans to die tonight
Oh, and you are directly in my way
And I bet you're gonna say it's not right
My reply:
Excuse me miss,
But do you have the slightest clue
Of exactly what you just said to me
And exactly who you're talking to?


She said, "I don't care, you don't even know me."
I said, "I know but I'd like to change that soon, hopefully."
Yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets


You make it sound so easy to be alive
But tell me how am I supposed to seize this day
When everything inside of me has died
My reply:
Trust me girl
I know your legs are pleading to leap
But I offer you this easy choice
Instead of dying, living with me


She said, "Are you crazy? You don't even know me."
I said, "I know but I'd like to change that soon, hopefully."
Yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets


I would be lying if I said that things would never get rough
And all this cliche motivation, it could never be enough
I could stand here all night trying to convince you
But what good would that do? My offer stands and you must choose


"All right, you win, but I only give you one night
To prove yourself to be better than my attempt at flight
I swear to God if you hurt me I will leap
I will toss myself from these very cliffs
And you'll never see it coming."
"Settle precious, I know what you're going through
Cause ten minutes before you got here I was gonna jump too."


Yeah we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets

i`m so in love with you...♥

Are your panties safe?


there`s a panty burglar in our house! someone is stealing my panties!!!

"Are You Sad?"


Your life has been so hard
It's dried up angels that can't keep guard
I'm trying to reach your hand
But I'm on fire
I never planned to fade... away
Stay with me
Stop pretending when they say that you're nothing


Are you sad?
Are you holding yourself?
Are you locked in your room?
You shouldn't be..


I'm drowning inside your head
Help me to answer
Help understand
Why it's been so long since we talked like friends
Please, forgive me,
I'm just a man
Whose made mistakes


Stop pretending when they say you're nothing


Are you sad?
Are you holding yourself?
Are you locked in your room?
You shouldn't be..

i`m so beautiful.

it scares me..

my BIRTHDAY!


so all my friends and I headed out on Friday night to catch up and see everyone and enjoy some beverage. Near the end of the evening my group of friends presented my present. First off I couldn't believe I was getting anything, I was happy enough just to see such wonderful people again.


so much fun... and now back to reality..

Ahhh!! He`s just SO darn cute!

You have GOT to be kidding me...


ME for MUSE!? I doubted if awkward, self-conscious, and inept added up to desirable in anyone's book.

- WHAT WOULD YOU RATHER BE CALLED? -
1. Babe or baby
► uhh hahaha By nlang cguro =))


2. Sweetie or cupcake
► hahahahaha :)) tamis naman.


3 . Darlin' or sunshine
► :)) ewan ko


4. Hot or beautiful
► :p mas mtino pngalawa e


P R E S E N T L Y -


1. Is your hair wet?
► nah


2. Is your cell phone right by you?
► nope


3. Do you miss someone?
► haaayyy.. sinabi mo pa


4. Are you wearing chapstick?
► iba po haha


5. Are you excited for tomorrow?
► bket naman ako maeexcite??


6 . Are you watching TV?
► bhra na ko manood eh


7 . Are you wearing pajamas?
► right now? nope


H A V E Y O U...? -


1. Recently done anything you regret?
► uhhh sort of.


2. Ever lied?
► cno bang nd? :))


3. Ever stuck gum under anything?
► HAHAHA nd naman. tntpon ko ng maayos


4. Ever kicked someone?
► haha aksidente cguro?


5. Ever tripped over your own feet?
► ako pa.


- T O D A Y -
1. Have you texted?
► yeah......


2. Have you yelled at someone?
► nd naman yell may snbi lang


Q & A :


1: Is there a person who is on your
mind right now?
► of course.


2: Where are you???
► asa bahay


3: Do you have any siblings?
► yeah


4: What are their ages?
► 20, 18 at 15


5 : Do you want children?
► sure :) but not now haha


6: What’s the last embarrassing thing
you did?
► nd ko na maalala eh


7 : Do you smile often?
► yup. pero kung wala sa mood at
mlalim iniicp, nd


8: Do you wish on stars?
► sometimes.


9 : Do you untie your shoes every time
you take them off?
► hahaha nd :)) shortcut ako eh


1 0: When did you last cry?
► tagal na


11 : If so, why?
► i`m feeling sad? haha..


12 : Are you a friendly person?
► no.. hehe


13: Whose bed did you sleep in last
night?
► my own


14: What color shirt are you
wearing?
► uhh white? na may red na heart?


15: Do you have any pets?
► meron po


16: What were you doing at 6pm last
night?
► sa labas ng bahay tumitingin ng borloloy.


18 : Is Tom on your friends list?
► cno un?


19: Have you ever cried on your
friend's shoulder?
► hmmmm ndi..

BTW, whenever you have a crush, do you talk to him? Are you SUPPOSED to talk to him? Hahaha. I don't have the courage to talk to my crush. I'm shy as assssss!!!!!!!!!!!!

if it never ends.. then where do we start?

Adam Sandler - Somebody Kill Me Lyrics



[Spoken]
Ok, I just want to warn you that when I wrote this song
I was listening to the Cure a lot.


[Sung]
You don't know how much I need you.
While you're near me I don't feel blue.
And when we kiss I know you need me too.
I can't believe I found a love that's so pure and true.


But it all was bullshit.
It was a goddamn joke.
And when I think of you and I,
I hope you fucking choke.


I hope you're glad with what you've done to me.
I lay in bed all day long feeling melancholy.
You left me here all alone, tears running constantly.


Oh somebody kill me please,
somebody kill me plee-ase,
I'm on my knees,
pretty pretty please kill me.


I want to die.
Put a bullet in my head.


[Spoken]
[Kid:] You're going to the mental institution.

and if one day i actually start to matter.. please let me know..

Deep Inside Of You


When we met light was shed
Thoughts free flow you said youve got something
Deep inside of you
A wind chime voice sound sway of your hips round rings true
Echos deep inside of you
These secret garden beams changed my life so it seems
Fall breeze blows outside I dont bring stride
My thoughts are warm and they go deep inside of you
Oh yeah
And I never felt alone
Alright alone alone
Till I met you
Friends say Ive changed
I dont listen cause I live to be
Deep inside of you
Slide of her dress shouts in darkness
Im so alive im
Deep inside of you
You said boy make girl feel good
But still deep inside still
Ive never felt alone
Till I met you
Im alright on my own
Till I met you
And Id know what to do if I just knew whats coming
I would change myself if I could
Id walk with my own people if I could find them
And I would say that Im sorry to you
Im sorry to you but I dont want to call you
But then I want to call you cause I dont want to crush you
But I feel like crushing you and its true
I took for granted you were with me
I breath by your looks and you look right through me
But we were broken and didnt know it
But we were broken and didnt know it
But we were broken and didnt know it
But we were broken and didnt know it
Right oh whats right
Somethings gone you withdraw and Im not strong like before I was
Deep inside of you
I can go nowhere I burn candles and stare at a ghost
Deep inside of you
And some great need in me starts to bled
Ive lost my self theres nothing left its all gone
Deep inside of you
Deep inside of you

9 words women use

1. fine: this is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.


2. five minutes: if she is getting dressed, this means half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.


3. nothing: this is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.


4. go ahead: this is a dare, not permission. Don’t do it!


5. loud sigh: this is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men, a loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.)


6. that’s okay: this is one of the most dangerous statements a woman can make to a man. That’s okay when she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.


7. thanks: a woman is thanking you, do not question, or Faint. Just say you’re welcome.


8. whatever: is a women’s way of saying FCUK YOU!


9. don’t worry about it, I got it: another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking ‘what’s wrong?’ for the woman’s response refer to #3.

quote from Joshua Harris' book, I Kissed Dating Goodbye.


"The right thing is not the right thing when it's at the wrong time."


A wrong can never be a right.


Patience is the key. Let's do this the right way this time.

if someone
comes
back
to you
for
another
chance..






its not always
because they love you..







it could also be because they`re just not done hurting you yet.. :[

How ironic that we have so many names in our contact list, but when we scroll down and found that you've got no one to call that you can really talk to…It's like you're surrounded by a million people but you still feel alone.

saw this from grace`s blog! HAHAHAHA!!!=))

I hate rumors. Rumors and gossip sometimes have enough ramifications to ruin someone's life. Sometimes they just make you afraid. Why is it that everyone's favorite past time is talking about other people? I fully admit that I am a hypocrite in this. I like a bit of spice and information about people just as much as the next person. I guess, like anyone else, I just don't like gossip when it's about me.

no more braces! HELLZ YEAH!!

i can't wait to drive..


i want to book my driving lesson soon... summer is so long...in the mean time...
i just have to be patient..

And She Was Gone


She chose to walk alone
Though others wondered why
Refused to look before her,
Kept eyes cast upwards,
Towards the sky.


She didn't have companions
No need for earthly things.
Only wanted freedom,
From what she felt were
Puppet strings.


She longed to be a bird. That she might fly away.
She pitied every blade of grass
For planted they would stay.


She longed to be a flame,
That brightly danced alone.
Felt jealous of the steam
That made the air its only home.


Some say she wished too hard.
Some say she wished too long.
But we awoke one autumn day
To find that she was gone.


Some say she wished too hard.
Some say she wished too long.
But we awoke one autumn day
To find that she was gone.


The trees, they say stood witness.
The sky refused to tell.
But someone who had seen it said
The story played out well.


She spread her arms out wide.
Breathed in the break of dawn.
She just let go of all she held...


And then she was gone.

i hope tomorrow is like today.

Cat Power - I Found A Reason


Oh I do believe
In all the things you say
What comes is better than what came before


And youd better come come, come come to me
Better come come, come come to me
Better run, run run, run run to me
Better come


Oh I do believe
In all the things you say
What comes is better that what came before


And youd better run run, run run to me
Better run, run run, run run to me
Better come, come come, come come to me
Youd better run

Annabel Lee


It was many and many a year ago,
In a kingdom by the sea,
That a maiden there lived whom you may know
By the name of ANNABEL LEE;
And this maiden she lived with no other thought
Than to love and be loved by me.


I was a child and she was a child,
In this kingdom by the sea;
But we loved with a love that was more than love-
I and my Annabel Lee;
With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven
Coveted her and me.


And this was the reason that, long ago,
In this kingdom by the sea,
A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling
My beautiful Annabel Lee;
So that her highborn kinsman came
And bore her away from me,
To shut her up in a sepulchre
In this kingdom by the sea.


The angels, not half so happy in heaven,
Went envying her and me-
Yes!- that was the reason (as all men know,
In this kingdom by the sea)
That the wind came out of the cloud by night,
Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee.


But our love it was stronger by far than the love
Of those who were older than we-
Of many far wiser than we-
And neither the angels in heaven above,
Nor the demons down under the sea,
Can ever dissever my soul from the soul
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee.


For the moon never beams without bringing me dreams
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And the stars never rise but I feel the bright eyes
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side
Of my darling- my darling- my life and my bride,
In the sepulchre there by the sea,
In her tomb by the sounding sea.


Edgar Allan Poe

♥ Jared Leto being his sexy self!*drool* haha XD

aside from his film career, Jared Leto is the lead vocalist, back-up guitarist and sole songwriter of the band 30 Seconds to Mars.

i am loving the wrong person. but not just any wrong person; the "right" wrong person-- someone whom i lovingly gaze upon and think, "this is the problem i want to have"..


(hmm..story of my life as of this moment..haha..)

"To let true love remain unspoken is the quickest route to a heavy heart"

-Warren Peace (Sky High)

We go for days without having a meaningful conversation, and i used to miss you a lot when that happened..


But you never seemed to miss me..


And after a while, i stopped missing you..

Why not?


Aren`t you happier now?

Well all that we need is just a reaction,
It's too much to ask for when there's no attraction anymore

I don't know. People change. People grow up and move on. It isn't easy to stay the same forever.

We try to avoid it,
But there's not a doubt,
And there's one thing I can do nothing about.

So reckless, oh so thoughtless, so jealous I could care less


I can`t believe I stayed wrecked and jealous for that!? HAHAHA!!!

A friend helps you up when you fall a best friend continues walking while saying, "Walk much dumbass?"


A friend gives you their umbrella in the rain a best friend takes yours and says, "RUN, BITCH RUN!"


A friend wipes your tears when you're rejected a best friend goes up to him and says, "It's because your gay isn't it?"


A good friend will bail you out of jail, but your best friend is sitting in the cell beside you saying, "Damn, that was fun!!"

Oh God. I hate her. she can suck an egg for all I cared.

We Are Broken - Paramore


I am outside
And I've been waiting for the sun
With my wide eyes
I've seen worlds that don't belong
My mouth is dry with words I cannot verbalize
Tell me why we live like this


Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me


Yeah
Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And all the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole


Lock the doors
Cause I like to capture this voice
You came to me tonight
So everyone will have a choice
And under red lights
I'll show myself it wasn't forged
We're at war
We live like this


Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me


Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And all the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole


Tower over me
Tower over me


And I'll take the truth at any cost


Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And all the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole

There`s no such thing as 'Destiny'


we only have different choices..

TIME PASSES. EVEN WHEN IT SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE. EVEN
when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise, It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does.
Even for me.

So long, Borgie..



“The great pleasure of a dog is that you may make a fool of yourself with him and not only will he not scold you, but he will make a fool of himself too.”

would i get what i want?


would i want what i get?

FANTASY or REALITY.


You Pick.

I want to be in love..

but i'm afraid it won't solve all my problems

Did you know? The truth hurts for a while but a lie hurts forever. That’s what they said about honesty.

College, Schmollege...

Is God a She?

I'm on my way home from school and almost at the footbridge, and there an old lady (decently dressed) stopped me and asked me for help. She claimed that she had no money to get back. This was coupled with an apologetic tone where she said that she was embarrased to be asking for money, but she had no option. I felt sympathy, and gave her some money..

I thought she was God.. hahaha! :-) ).


There was a feeling of having done a good deed for the day.

"you are exactly my brand of heroine.."

The Spill Canvas - This Is For Keeps


The streets are dark, my pulse is flat-lined
as I'm running to you
You sit completely unaware of what I'm about to do
The air is thick with tension much like when we are together
My fangs are aching as I'm pondering about you and I forever


As I round your corner
I am nervous that you won't be my lover
I knock three times and hope that my pale complexion won't blow my cover
You answer the door with your innocent face
Would you like to leave this human race, tonight?


Eternity will never be enough for me
and eternally will live our infallible love


My brain is pumping an unusual secretion of lust
Your eyes are softer now
and your chin, it drips a bloody color of rust
I am raising up the stakes of this round, I am playing for keeps
Oh, would you like to leave this human race, tonight?


Eternity will never be enough for me
and eternally will live our infallible love


Follow me into the sea
We'll drown together and immortalize you and me
Leave behind this lonely town
We're both better than this, it's not worth being down


Eternity will never be enough for me
and eternally will live our infallible love


Follow me into the sea
We'll drown together and immortalize you and me
Leave behind this lonely town (eternally)
We're both better than this, it's not worth being down (eternally)

Yo ho, yo ho, a pirate's life for me...

Borrowed a DVD from Stephen yesterday. Personally love the twist at the end of Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest! Good grief! What in the name of pantyhose is going to happen next in the 3rd sequel?!?

how do you know if you love someone and it's not just out of boredom?

Smile, someone up there loves you.

Touch Me I`m Sick


I'm sick and tired of being sick.

Bianca is FINALLY coming back!

But hey, that’s life, isn’t it?

I am fairly agile. I can bend and not break. Or I can break and take it with a smile. And I am so resilient. I recover quickly. I'll convince you soon that I am fine.

I don`t care what you`re doing, what you`ve done, where you are, where you`ve been, I don`t care about whatfuckingever, you fucking SUCK.

proves that amazing things happen when you least expect them.

I am what you see
I am not what they say
But if I turned out to be
Could you love me anyway?

-Tyler Hilton

haha.. i just felt like drawing..

«·´¨xo· m e ·xo´¨·»: sabi sakin ni priscilla na kung ang lahat ng tao naniniwala sa destiny eh d ba parang wala nang nangyari sa kanila dba???
«·´¨xo· m e ·xo´¨·»: totoo naman eh!
keiichy: destiny is freaking gay.....fate is such a lesbo
«·´¨xo· m e ·xo´¨·»: we make our own destinies
keiichy: yepz
«·´¨xo· m e ·xo´¨·»: destinys pala
«·´¨xo· m e ·xo´¨·»: haha!
keiichy: but when you meet a person really special to you...you always think its destiny...because thats really how they mean so much to you ryT?
keiichy: you just use destiny as a backup
«·´¨xo· m e ·xo´¨·»: oh..?
«·´¨xo· m e ·xo´¨·»: ganun ba un?
«·´¨xo· m e ·xo´¨·»: pero parang nga..
keiichy: eh pano ba tlga ngyayare ang destiny?
«·´¨xo· m e ·xo´¨·»: kahit anong gawin mo magkikita talaga kayo?
keiichy: ewn.....destiny ksi ay prng luck....
«·´¨xo· m e ·xo´¨·»: hmm???
«·´¨xo· m e ·xo´¨·»: elaborate
«·´¨xo· m e ·xo´¨·»: haha
keiichy: hahaha
keiichy: ewn q....corny explanations q ksi.....lyk gni2 pag you met this gurl you ddnt evn know for 5 tyms in a row...you believe that its destiny ryt?....pero tignan mo..icompara mo yun sa pag toss ng coin at nakkta mo yung heads plgi...similar dba?
keiichy: so if lucky ka tlga...you'll meet the ryt person for you
keiichy: i think
keiichy: haha
«·´¨xo· m e ·xo´¨·»: luck.. hmm.. malay mo nga destined cla na magkita dba?
keiichy: yessss......if he/shes lucky
keiichy: hahaha
keiichy: sna gnun din aq
«·´¨xo· m e ·xo´¨·»: cgurado ka na ganun un???
«·´¨xo· m e ·xo´¨·»: luck?
keiichy: hmmm...depends
keiichy: what do you want to believe in..
keiichy: ewn q tlga...ksi...aq kht ano...bsta...i wnt to stay with a person that ill learn to love nd love one day...welll i hope that person''ll love me as well
«·´¨xo· m e ·xo´¨·»: whooOoooOshoOooOOo
«·´¨xo· m e ·xo´¨·»: may dumaan lang na malaki pwet o boobs na babae makakalimutan mo yan eh
«·´¨xo· m e ·xo´¨·»: mga lalaki talaga
«·´¨xo· m e ·xo´¨·»: haha
keiichy: hmmmmm
keiichy: sure ka?
keiichy: newei true in some way ksi lalake tlga gnun sila kwento nila puro babae......peroo thing is...they cnt have that gurl...kaya gnun
«·´¨xo· m e ·xo´¨·»: d kuntento putek
«·´¨xo· m e ·xo´¨·»: sarap tangalan ng mga itlog
keiichy: hahaha....bsta aq contento na sa isa...
«·´¨xo· m e ·xo´¨·»: magsasawa ka rin noh...
keiichy: hahaha
keiichy: believe me dpends if willing ka magsawa

this day is driving me nucking futs...

i feel like you live in the future, and i stay in the past.

Y I love my bestfriend.. she rocks my world XD

you`re gonna find someone new
i really hope you do
`cause I love you
and the sun will come on thru,
it`s gonna shine for you
`cause I adore you

Pick-Up Lines HAHAHAHAHA!

--Am I dead, Angel? Cause this must be heaven!


--I hope you know CPR, cos you take my breath away!


--How was Heaven when you left it?


--I think I can die happy now, coz I've just seen a piece of heaven.


--You've made me so nervous that I've totally forgotten forgotten my standard pick-up line.


--Is your name Gillette? ...coz you're the best a man can get.


--"See my friend over there? He wants to know if you think I'm cute."


--"You must be a thief, because you stole my heart from across the room."


-- "There must be something wrong with my eyes,
I can't take them off you."


--I had a dream about you last night. Would you like to make it a reality?


--I'm lost. Which way to your house?


--I had a really bad day and it always makes me feel better to see a pretty girl smile, so could
you please smile for me?


--You must be Jamaican, because Jamaican me crazy.


--You must be a high jumper, because you make my bar raise!


--Do you have a Bandaid? Cos I just scraped my knee falling for you.


--Do you have a map? Cos Honey, I just keep gettin lost in your eyes.


--Hey baby, you must be a light switch, coz every time I see you, you turn me on!


--I'm sick. My medicine is to talk to you.


--Are you a Pokemon? coz` I choose you.

--I forgot your name, can I call you mine?

" a friend is someone who knows all about you, and still loves you "



i had one best friend. she made some bad choices so i had to stop being friends with her and we basically became two different people in highschool..




my best friend lives in Africa, and I`m stuck here..


my other best friend is like 4 hours away most of the year for college... :[

STARTING LINE
"Playing Favorites"


i guess the most that i can do
is make a call and tell you the truth
sing the words in melody
and hope that you'll believe me
here's another song for you
so this one this one makes two
i still don't know where to begin
i'll just leave it at this


i'm sure you always feel my eyes on you
but i hope that you will never feel unwanted


[chorus:]
wait for me to move out west
it's ok if you don't
i hope you know
you're my favorite thing
about the west coast
i wish i stayed
i hope you wait
so here i am
counting down the days
till california comes


this is the least that i can do
you know i'm bad at calling you
the best way i can extend
the lonely words "i miss you."
i'll say it but i'm sure you knew
you're what i look most forward to
coming back to where i've been
i'll just leave it at this


i'm sure you always feel my eyes on you
but i hope that you will never feel unwanted
if you feel unwanted


[chorus x2:]
wait for me to move out west
it's ok if you don't
i hope you know
you're my favorite thing
about the west coast
i wish i stayed
i hope you wait
so here i am
counting down the days
till california comes


till california comes

I-AM-SUCH-A-KLUTZ


I am such a klutz around the house I always end up hurting myself. I bumped my head yesterday badly on a door.. hahaha

There`s nothing worse in this world than having to wait for shit.

hopelessly devoted

ever had the feeling? you attempt & fight so hard to take someone off your mind & off your life.. but each time you think how to forget.. you keep on falling much more... :'[

I didn`t see your fucking truck, you fuck!


So I almost died today for the sake of an education.... No, I`m not shitting you. I swear to God I almost died today. No jokes. But maybe I should look before crossing or a fucking truck hits you and you wake up saying shit.. I should look around first before doing anything!...

bored.very bored.

*yAwn*

I`m supposed to be at expert guides right now but I'm too damn lazy to even give a shit. Plus I am just not in the mood.

i think i've read this from somewhere before..

I hate guys with big egos. Guess what, boys? You`re not cool or hot. You`re annoying. Go eat apples.

My "vacation" is almost over. It sucks out loud that it went by so quickly.

because of you

i don`t know how to love.

and i forgive you..

Did you ever look at a picture of yourself and see a stranger in the background? It makes you wonder how many people have pictures of you.

Stephen King wrote: Time takes it all. Whether you want it to or not, time takes it all away, time bares it away. And in the end, there is only darkness. Sometimes we find others in that darkness, and sometimes we lose them there again.

can we get this back from how it used to be?

Happy birthday, bitch!
Happy birthday, bitch!
Bitch, bitch, bitch, bitch, bitch!
Stupid fucking bitch!

…sorry

it sucks when you
give your heart


& no one would
take it,


but its even
sadder when
someone takes it


promises to take
care of it


then,


gives it back &
leave it BROKEN..

My violent, bad-tempered mother has gone out.

I was watching tv in my brother's room when mom came barging in. (Not bothering to knock or anything.) Anyway, she went even more bananas than usual. Lanz peed on the floor. I heard her saying something but I didn't pay any attention. Mom was all red-faced.
"Ria, tumulong ka naman. Wala ka na ngang tinutulong dito sa bahay eh. Lumayas ka na nga lang dito sa bahay. Bantayan mo si Lanz."
I raised my eyebrows ironically. Talk about the pot calling the other pot a black kettle, er... well whatever. She really has got a volatile temper; she should go to anger management classes. I will suggest it to her. But not just now as she has got a brush in her hand.

Oh God, it's so boring being brokenhearted.

I've spent so much time in bed I'll probably start growing a long white beard soon, like Rip van Thing.

I, like God, do not play with dice and I don't believe in coincidences.

you think you know someone.. but then you realize that it's all been just a big lie...

Embracing Ice..

I`m not supposed to love you...

I had never known his past and had never really wanted to, but its hard to hate someone when you see the truth. If only they had allowed me to live in the lies I had built up around him, my lover.. my enemy... My..........

if we were destined to meet, i thought by chance we'd meet at someplace.. somewhere..

do you know what fate is?

it's building a bridge of chance for someone you love.

-my sassy girl

Ben Lee > Birthday Song Lyrics

Hey there I said it
I'm in love
With you
There's an ocean between us
Just like me
Deep and blue
And I, at times have had nothing
But tonight I want nothing but you
You're the only thing I want
The only thing I want
The only thing on my mind
All the time
Staying up 'til dawn won't take its toll
'Til we get old
And drinking is just the way
We keep away the cold
And you, you know what it means
To be true and searching like me
You're the only thing I need
The only thing I need
The only thing on my mind
All the time
And you gave me a reason
To give you my soul
I'll give you it all
You're the only one I want
The only one I need
The only one on my mind
All the time
All the time
All the time
All the time

anna: why do relationships have to be so hard?

peyton: cause the only thing harder is being alone.

- one tree hill ( i agree! )

QUOTE:

the face can speak of a thousand emotions but it can easily MASK what the heart truly feels.. Dont be fooled, for the "HAPPIEST FACE MAYBE MASKING THE MOST HURTING HEART."

The best love is the kind that awakens the soul; that makes us reach for more, that plants the fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. That's what I hope to give you forever. (aww.sweet. I wonder how it feels like when a boy tells you the exact same thing.)

It is said everywhere,

"Do not leave your valuable things unattended."

LAYER 1: ON THE OUTSIDE.
Name: Ria

Birth Date: 30th November 1990
Current Status: Single
Eye Colour: Dark Brown..i guess
Hair Colour: brown
Righty or Lefty: right


LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE.
My Heritage : Filipino

My Fears : being alone...(though I don't really show it) haha..
My Perfect Pizza : Hawaian with lots of cheese.


LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.
My Thoughts First Waking Up : 5 more minutes...
My Bedtime : It varies...about 12:30 onwards..
My Most Missed Memory: nursery school where life was free and easy.


LAYER 4: MY PICK.
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King
Single or Group Dates: Single
Adidas or Nike: It doesn't really matter
Tea or Nestea: Nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla: It depends on my mood
Cappuccino or Coffee: I love Mocha..but between those 2 I guess I'll choose coffee


LAYER 5: DO YOU...
Smoke: NO
Curse: all the time
Take a Shower: DUH
Have a Crush: Not now
Think You've Been In Love: Urm...
Go To School: yep

Want To Get Married: Would love to when I find my bright and shinning knight..
Believe In Yourself: not really..

Think You're A Health Freak: Nope


LAYER 6: IN THE PAST.
Drank Alcohol: Yeah..only during special occasions
Gone To The Mall : Obviously
Been On Stage: Yeah
Eaten Sushi: Yeah...
Dyed Your Hair: it's natural.. haha


LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER...
Played A Stripping Game: No.
Changed Who You Were To Fit In: Uhm..I don't think so..


LAYER 8: AGE YOU'RE HOPING...
To Be Married: I dunno..whenever I'm ready I guess. 24?


LAYER 9: IN A GUY...
Best Eye Colour: Doesn't matter
Best Hair Colour: Whatever that suits him best..
Short Hair or Long Hair: I prefer short or whatever that looks nice on him...


LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING...
A Minute Ago: Answering the questions above
An Hour Ago: watching One Tree Hill
4.5 Hours Ago: eating

1 Month Ago: sleeping?
1 Year Ago: went to yesteryear with sarah joy and clarisse..

LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCES...
I love : you? haha.. uhh.. watching my tv series and dramas the whole day without people disturbing me
I hate: to do something that I'm force to, people interupting me while I'm watching movie.
I hide: my feelings to myself most of the time
I miss: my friends...
I need: to get a life..

is it me..? or that the people i care about always go away...

Bianca called.. glad to know somebody still remembers me..

*sigh*

i miss her soo much..

i really need a friend right now..

i lost..

my cover when my halloween mask got ripped off my face.

i found..

i felt more comfortable when people knew me for who i really was.

only a few fortunate people will ever see us for who we really are.. cherish them for they are our true friends.

Can you lay your life down so a stranger can live
Can you take what you need, but take less than you give
Could you close every day without the glory and fame
Could you hold you head high when no one knows your name
That's how legends are made - at least that's what they say

We say goodbye - but never let go
We live we die - cuz you can't save every soul
Gotta take every chance to
Show that you're the kinda of man who
Will never look back - never look down
and never let go

Can you lose everything you ever had planned
Can you sit down again and play another hand
Could you risk everything for the chance of being alone
Under pressure find the grace - or would you come undone
That's how legends are made - at least that's what they say

"There are two tragedies in life. One is to lose your heart's desire. The other is to gain it."

Well, tragedies happen. What are you gonna do? Give up? Quit? No. I realize now that when your heart breaks, you gotta fight like hell to make sure you're still alive. Because you are... and that pain you feel, it's life. The confusion and fear, that's there to remind you that somewhere out there is something better... and that something is worth fighting for.

Time goes very slowly when you are suicidal.

Staring out the window at other people having a nice life.

Who would have thought things could be so unbelievably pooey?

Ben Folds Five › Brick

6 am day after christmas
I throw some clothes on in
The dark
The smell of cold
Car seat is freezing
The world is sleeping and
I am numb
Up the stairs to her apartment
She is balled up on the couch
Her mom and dad went down
To charlotte
They're not home to find us
Out
And we drive
Now that I have found someone
I'm feeling more alone
Than I ever have before


Chorus
She's a brick and I'm drowning
Slowly
Off the coast and Im headed
Nowhere
She's a brick and I'm drowning
Slowly


They call her name at 7:30
I pace around the parking lot
Then I walk down to buy her
Flowers
And sell some gifts that I got
Can't you see
It's not me you're dying for
Now she's feeling more alone
Than she ever has before


Chorus


As weeks went by
It showed that she was not fine
They told me son it's time
To tell the truth
And she broke down and I broke
Down
cause I was tired of lying
Driving back to her apartment
For the moment were alone
She's alone
And I'm alone
Now I know it


Chorus

"At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, it's usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them. The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping."


-Meredith Grey-


This is really making whole lot of sense to me. Really at the end of the day, we just want to be close to somebody, someone that we know we can count on no matter what the circumstances are, someone that we can just pour out what-so-ever that's inside of us and knowing that they will just listen and not judge us by what we did. Someone that we can talk to when things turn out ugly. Personally, I think that it's not the quantity that matters but the quality. It's not about how many friends do you have at the end of the day, but how many of them really stick by you, and those really are the ones worth keeping.

There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads. Afraid. Confused. Without a roadmap. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course, when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back. But once in a while people push on to something better. Something found just beyond the pain of going it alone. And just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in. Or to give someone a second chance. Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream. Because it's only when you're tested, that you truly discover who you are. And it's only when you're tested, that you discover who you can be. The person you want to be does exist. Somewhere on the otherside of hard work and faith and belief ... and beyond the heartache and fear of what lies ahead.

-Lucas-

My brown hair tangled


as my own tangled thoughts,


I lie here alone,


dreaming of one who has gone,


who stroked my hair till it shone.

I thought it was fitting, don't you?

Currently: In love with James Lafferty.. Y

*drool*

I’d like to remain a secret. A shadow. A background. If no one knows me, no one sees me, no one cares… That would be fine. So no one can break my heart.

The reason why I sleep is that my heart has a tendency to break apart when I’m awake…

Every boy is the same

they aren't looking for love they want sex.

i was right.. love IS just an illusion that leads to reproduction.

you know what hurts most.. is that saying "i love you more" and then you realize that you were right..=/

i love him.. but really though.. think about it. if both really loved each other equally, we wouldn't break up. you only break up because one cared more for the other.

i cared more for him than he did for me.

Please Listen To What I Am Not Saying


Don't be fooled by me.
Don't be fooled by the face I wear.
For I wear a mask, I wear a thousand masks.
Masks that I'm afraid to take off,
and none of them is me.


Pretending is an art that's second nature with me.
But don't be fooled, for God's sake don't be fooled.


I gave you the impression that I'm secure,
that all is sunny and unruffled with me,
within as well as without;
that confidence is my name, and coolness my game;
that the weather's calm and I'm in command,
and that I need no one.


But don't believe me. Please.
My surface may seem smooth, but my surface is my
mask. Beneath lies no smugness, no complacence.
Beneath dwells the real me in confusion, in fear,
in aloneness


But I hide this.
I don't want anybody to know it.
I panic at the thought of my weakness and my fear
of being exposed. That's why I frantically create a
mask to hide behind, a nonchalant, sophisticated
façade to help me pretend,
to shield me from the glance that knows.


But such a glance is prescisely my salvation, my only
salvation. And I know it. That is, if it's followed by
acceptance, if it's followed by love.


It's the only thing that can liberate me from myself,
from my own self-built prison walls, from the barriers
that I so painstakingly erect. It's the only thing that
will assure me of what I can't assure myself, that I'm
really worth something.


But I don't tell you this. I don't care. I'm afraid to.
I'm afraid your glance will not be followed by acceptance and love. I'm afraid you'll think less of
me, that you'll laugh, and your laugh will kill me. I'm
afraid that deep down I'm nothing, that I'm just no
good, and that you'll see this and reject me.


So I play my game, my desperate pretending game,
with a façade of assurance without, a trembling
child within. And so begins the parade of masks. And
my life becomes a front. I idly chatter to you in the
suave tones of surface talk. I tell you everything
that's really nothing, and nothing of what's everything,
of what's crying withim me.


So when I'm going through my routine, don't be fooled
by what I'm saying. Please listen carefully and try to
hear what I'm not saying, what I'd like to be able to
say, what for survival I need to say, but which I can't
say.


I dislike hiding. Honestly.
I dislike the superficial game I'm playing, the
superficial, phony game.
I'd really like to be genuine and spontaneous and me.
BUT YOU'VE GOT TO HELP ME.

"Every single person has at least one secret that would break your heart. If we could just remember this, I think there would be a lot more compassion and tolerance in the world"

Never saw it coming.. backstabbers suck

psycho bitch from hell: if you don't like me, then stop wasting your time talking behind my back. why do you have to spread nasty gossips about me? do you really need to get your strength from my weaknesses? if you think my personality sucks, why not take a better look on yourself? your hate's making your attitude rot. live your life, not mine. -gm

pff... who gives the fuck, right?

and when did i talk behind her back anyway? why is she so defensive about people calling her "malandi" if it's not true? she's a backstabber.. Its the nature of backstabbers, after all, to act when you're not around to defend yourself. Those who put on an act pretend they are your best friend, and the next thing you know they are ruining your life. Whether they go out with the guy you like behind your back, or if they steal your most valuable possesion, they are HATED.

To cry doesn’t mean you are weak. To cry when you have to cry is a way of showing strength. Not so many people can do it. The real strength doesn’t mean physical strength...

It is when all is lost and still, you go on.

"Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful."

Why is there suffering?

Because without suffering there would be no compassion.

if i could fly away from all my troubles and fears..

then tell me why am i still here..?

What Matters Most Lyrics


It's not how long we held each other's hand
What matters is how well we loved each other
It's not how far we travelled on our way
Of what we found to say
It's not the spring you see, but all the shades of green
It's not how long I held you in my arms
What matters is how sweet the years together
It's not how many summertimes we had to give to fall
The early morning smiles we tearfully recall
What matters most is that we loved at all.
It's not how many summertimes we had to give to fall
The early morning smiles we tearfully recall
What matters most is that we loved at all.

What matters most is that we loved at all.

Never lose hope on the person you have chosen to love, If he or she's the reason why your heart aches, who cares? He or she's still the reason why your heart beats anyway.

Tomorrow

And I wanna believe you,

When you tell me that it'll be ok,

yeah I try to believe you,

But I don't

When you say that it's gonna be,

It always turns out to be a different way,

I try to believe you,

Not today, today, today, today, today...

[Chorus:]

I don't know how I'll feel,

tomorrow, tomorrow

I don't know what to say,

tomorrow, tomorrow,

Is a different day,

tomorrow,

It's always been up to you,

It's turning around,

It's up to me,

I'm gonna do what I have to do,

just don't

Gimme a little time,

Leave me alone a little while,

Maybe it's not too late,

not today, today, today, today, today...

[Chorus:]

I don't know how I'll feel,

tomorrow, tomorrow

I don't know what to say,

tomorrow, tomorrow,

Is a different day

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, and I know I'm not ready,

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, maybe tomorrow

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, I'm not ready,

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah,

maybe tomorrow

And I wanna believe you,

When you tell me that it'll be ok,

Yeah I try to believe you,

Not today, today, today, today, today...

Tomorrow it may change [4x]