is it me..? or that the people i care about always go away...

Bianca called.. glad to know somebody still remembers me..

*sigh*

i miss her soo much..

i really need a friend right now..

i lost..

my cover when my halloween mask got ripped off my face.

i found..

i felt more comfortable when people knew me for who i really was.

only a few fortunate people will ever see us for who we really are.. cherish them for they are our true friends.

Can you lay your life down so a stranger can live
Can you take what you need, but take less than you give
Could you close every day without the glory and fame
Could you hold you head high when no one knows your name
That's how legends are made - at least that's what they say

We say goodbye - but never let go
We live we die - cuz you can't save every soul
Gotta take every chance to
Show that you're the kinda of man who
Will never look back - never look down
and never let go

Can you lose everything you ever had planned
Can you sit down again and play another hand
Could you risk everything for the chance of being alone
Under pressure find the grace - or would you come undone
That's how legends are made - at least that's what they say

"There are two tragedies in life. One is to lose your heart's desire. The other is to gain it."

Well, tragedies happen. What are you gonna do? Give up? Quit? No. I realize now that when your heart breaks, you gotta fight like hell to make sure you're still alive. Because you are... and that pain you feel, it's life. The confusion and fear, that's there to remind you that somewhere out there is something better... and that something is worth fighting for.

Time goes very slowly when you are suicidal.

Staring out the window at other people having a nice life.

Who would have thought things could be so unbelievably pooey?

Ben Folds Five › Brick

6 am day after christmas
I throw some clothes on in
The dark
The smell of cold
Car seat is freezing
The world is sleeping and
I am numb
Up the stairs to her apartment
She is balled up on the couch
Her mom and dad went down
To charlotte
They're not home to find us
Out
And we drive
Now that I have found someone
I'm feeling more alone
Than I ever have before


Chorus
She's a brick and I'm drowning
Slowly
Off the coast and Im headed
Nowhere
She's a brick and I'm drowning
Slowly


They call her name at 7:30
I pace around the parking lot
Then I walk down to buy her
Flowers
And sell some gifts that I got
Can't you see
It's not me you're dying for
Now she's feeling more alone
Than she ever has before


Chorus


As weeks went by
It showed that she was not fine
They told me son it's time
To tell the truth
And she broke down and I broke
Down
cause I was tired of lying
Driving back to her apartment
For the moment were alone
She's alone
And I'm alone
Now I know it


Chorus