Struggle is good

good to have stuff taken away for a time

to make you appreciate

to have gratitude

 I know it's late, but Congratulations

I deactivated my Facebook during 2021. I figured that I don't really talk to most of my friends at Facebook, I'm not missing much. I don't post statuses and photos anymore. They say it is a sign of maturity that as one grows older they become more private. Only my close friends have my contact and can reach me via Viber or Whatsapp.

I activated my Facebook again this year 2025. I have fewer friends and some of the women has gotten married with different surnames. Every now and then, I search for a name I once knew from my past. I remember we were Facebook friends, but when I checked, we aren't friends anymore.

I searched for your name in Google and saw that you have gotten married. We broke up almost 2 decades ago. We were just kids when we met. I don't really have any lingering feelings of angst around it. 

I truly am happy for you. 

But I'll admit, I felt a bit of sadness. I pondered on my feelings for a couple of days. Why am I feeling this way for something that happened a lifetime ago? Then I realized, it is because I am saying goodbye to that part of my life; I suppose in a way to that last vestiges of my youth.

I'm not sure if you will read this or even if you remember me. I know it's late, but Congratulations. I genuinely wish you both happiness.

 In November 2021, I deactivated my facebook account. 

Doing that made me realize how people forget I existed.

It doesn't bother me that much. I only have 3 friends anyway.

 It's not the end. You and I will meet again. 

Soon, I hope.

 "You're all grown up. How are you?" 

"Trying to do better."

 Every year I watch Dead Poet's Society.

And then I cry with Todd as he bawled his eyes out on the snow.

"Tryin to make ends meet,

you're a slave to money,

then you die"

The Verve - Bitter Sweet Symphony

 Never hide your power. Choose failure over petty success. Words to live by.

 I miss my brother...

I don't really care much for celebrating my birthday anymore. I stopped caring after I got older than my older brother.