Heaven, are you really waiting outside the door?

8 years ago, I remember watching Average Joe right after Joan of Arcadia.. why do I feel as if it was just 2 or 3 years ago? 10 years from now, will I also look back in 2012 and think about this?

Trying to relieve my childhood before 2012 ends.

People cannot think properly if they are desperate.

"I'm bad, and that's good. I will never be good, and that's not bad. There's no one I'd rather be then me"

I don't get it.. why does Jesse have to wait 85 years to visit Winnie again?

Is it because, for the Tucks, time does not exist for them?

But even though, after like 10 years he didn't even thought about visiting her?

Maybe he forgot?

"Just keep talking. From the talking comes the love."

Someday, I'm going to change my stars.

One of these days, I'm going to delete my facebook account.

"Who will win?"

"The one you feed."

8 years later

I've finally read the last of the Mediator series. It was a little disappointing though. For some reason, I think Suze is much better suited with Paul than with Jesse.

I'll pretend you did. :)

2 days before my birthday.. :)

I miss you.

Stop being a stranger.

"I love you. Did you know that?"
- Carnations after sundown

if someone pushes you, push back twice as hard.

"If it doesn't feel right, don't do it."
~Lori Grimes

"Again, keep your heart guarded. Don't come to a conclusion without hearing a verdict."

In my dreams, I asked if you could save me a seat and that I would like to sit beside you.. 

you answered with a shake of your head, saying "Not now.."

are you there, moriarty?

"Satisfaction brings contentment" wise words from my brother..

"Sometimes it worries me how much time I spent thinking about my love life when there are so many more important things to discuss in the world."
~Wasted

I miss watching anime..

will not check facebook for a week..

"Konting tiis nalang..."

I like myself the way I am.

Have you ever had that one crush that you really liked and sometimes obsessed over? I should stop

I don't know what to think anymore.. I don't want to judge him.. Maybe it's too early to tell?

Hopefully tomorrow I'll know..

Maybe it was just better this way. Instead of making a fool of myself, eventually I would get over it and move on.

"The reason I forgive you is because you are not perfect. You are imperfect. And so am I. All humans are imperfect. Even the man outside my apartment who litters. When I was young, I wanted to be anybody but myself. Dr. Bernard Hasselhoff said if I was on a desert island, then I would have to get used to my own company. Just me and the coconuts. He said I would have to accept myself: my warts and all. And that we don't get to choose our warts. They are a part of us and we have to live with them. We can however, choose our friends. And I am glad I have chosen you. Dr. Bernard Hasselhoff also said that everyone's lives are like a very long sidewalk. Some are well paved. Others, like mine, have cracks, banana skins and cigarette butts. Your sidewalk is like mine, but probably not as many cracks. Hopefully, one day our sidewalks will meet and we can share a can of condensed milk. You are my best friend. You are my only friend."

~Max Jerry Horowitz

“I’m grateful that my mind was so out of control. Without that, I never would’ve learned the Grateful Flow or discovered how wonderful life can really be.”
-- Barry Michels

Just watched a couple of movies.. 'Drive' played by Ryan Gosling is AHHHMAZING!!
I actually like him more now than Zac Efron. I also get to hear new kinds of songs from the motion picture. This movie is definitely worth watching. Oh! and the elevator scene! I actually felt the passion of the kiss there! Haha! Is that even possible to feel something just by watching it? I felt like a voyeur watching them kiss..

Next is 'Letters to Juliet'. I think it's one of the best romantic films I've watched. Made me want to go to Verona and write a letter to Juliet hoping she has the answers to my questions..

True love is your soul's recognition of its counterpoint in another.

"Looking at me and seeing me are two different things."

~angel-puppeteer

"My heart is a stone
You don't want to go there
But I don't mind if you try"

~ Athlete - The Awkward

While watching a re-run of One Tree Hill awhile ago, I remembered how every tuesday at 8pm, me and my siblings would go to our parents' room and watch One Tree Hill on ETC and sing along to the opening theme. I can't believe that was 6 years ago.. Peyton was the reason I took Fine Arts as a course in college.. so many memories.. oh and the soundtracks! Where I Stood by Missy Higgins. I still haven't deleted that song on my phone since I heard it in one episode in 2008. I don't even remember when I stopped watching the show, maybe when I don't see Lucas and Peyton anymore?*sigh*

I'll miss this show. It's the only show I've watched that has problems like my own.. well aside from Supernatural of course minus the angels and demons.

One Tree Hill
“Tree Hill is just a place somewhere in the world. Maybe it’s a lot like your world. Maybe it’s nothing like it. But, if you look closely you might see someone like you. Someone trying to find their way; someone trying to find their place; someone trying to find their self.”

“To love is to stop comparing.” - Bernard Grasset

Impostor Syndrome...

"They say if you dream of a thing more than once it's sure to come true. And I've dreamed of him many times…"

Aurora, Sleeping Beauty

"Life's not a spectator sport. If watchin' is all you're gonna do, then you're gonna watch your life go by without ya."

-The Hunchback of Notre Dame

Eventually.

Someday.

Maybe.

I've told you every little thing.. now I just want to ask you this one big thing..
Are you disappointed with me?

What is a True Friend?

Things I realized these past few days..

• Some people are just nice to you only Once.. usually happens at the first meeting.

• You will only and truly know who your friends are when they don't need other people to see how much they care by posting on your Facebook page. (I mean, you can reach me on my mobile, do you have to post it on my wall?)

• I have to start making my own bucket list.

I'm hurting you because I love you.. too bad you can't understand that..

Come On..

Come along with me

To a town beside the sea

We can wander through the forest

And do so as we please.

Come along with me

To a cliff under a tree.

Where we'll gaze upon on the water

As an everlasting dream

All of my affections

I'll give them all to you

Maybe by next summer

We won't have changed our tune

'Cause we'll want to be

In this town beside the sea

Making up new numbers

And living so merrily

All of my affections

Give them all to you

I'll be here for you always

And always be for you

Come along with me

To a town beside the sea

We can wander through the forest

And do so as we please

Living so merrily

Damn I wish I was your lover

Lord, grant me the strength to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

69. Stop Faking Your Life

It’s so easy to get caught in a flow of fakes. Society wants us to politely lie and you need to lie sometimes. Just stop it. Being authentic is the best thing you can do. No need to hide your sorrow, nor your joy. They’re both part of life.

Craig: Okay, I know you're thinking, "What is this? Kid spends a few days in the hospital and all his problems are cured?" But I'm not. I know I'm not. I can tell this is just the beginning. I still need to face my homework, my school, my friends. My dad. But the difference between today and last Saturday is that for the first time in a while, I can look forward to the things I want to do in my life. Bike, eat, drink, talk. Ride the subway, read, read maps. Make maps, make art. Finish the Gates application. Tell my dad not to stress about it. Hug my mom. Kiss my little sister. Kiss my dad. Make out with Noelle. Make out with her more. Take her on a picnic. See a movie with her. See a movie with Aaron. Heck, see a movie with Nia. Have a party. Tell people my story. Volunteer at 3 North. Help people like Bobby. Like Muqtada. Like me. Draw more. Draw a person. Draw a naked person. Draw Noelle naked. Run, travel, swim, skip. Yeah, I know it's lame, but, whatever. Skip anyway. Breathe... Live.

"Sometimes what's in your head isn't as crazy as you think."

-It's kind of a funny story

I now know the feeling Helga gets when she's around Arnold..:)

That feeling when you stole a glance to your crush, and he was already looking at you.:)

I have this weird habit of making funny faces when I'm in front of a mirror. I don't know why.

Watching 'The Beautician and the Beast' made me realize that it is not bad to always want to look good all the time. It's not that I am addicted to make-up. Far from it. I just always want to look presentable. To hell with all the haters. Their opinions about me are not my business.

“We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell.”
― Oscar Wilde

watching a video of a pilates workout.. for some reason, the woman in the video keeps groaning and I think my parents might think I'm watching porn.

Sometimes I feel pretty yet there are times when I feel ugly.. I wonder why..

I'm on TV!! hahahaha

MIB 3 is awesome!!

"One day, you're seventeen and planning for someday.. And without you ever really noticing, someday is today.. And then someday is yesterday, and this is your life." Nathan Scott

And my head told my heart
"Let love grow"
But my heart told my head
"This time no
This time no"

"Einstein said that the imagination is more important than knowledge."

Never let go.

6 years is a long time, isn't it?

I feel old.:(

Abracadabra

"Never mistake knowledge for wisdom. One helps you make a living; the other helps you make a life."
-Sandra Carey

It just hasn't happened yet.

This scene..

"I didn't remember, but I didn't forget."

You know sometimes, like when someone dies, and you're sad, and it's ok to be sad?  But then there are times when you're supposed to be happy but you're sad anyway...and those times are even worse than the times when you're supposed to be sad.

Louis: I want to be just like my best friend when I grow up. He's only ten but he looks much older. He's like the perfect grown up because on the inside, he's still just a kid - he's not afraid to learn things or try things, or to meet new people the way most grown ups are. It's like he's looking at everything for the first time - because he is. And most grown ups aren't like that.

Where IS Adam Zolotin now??

Hannibal Lecter: Tell me Clarice, would you ever say to me "Stop. If you loved me, you'd stop"?
Clarice Starling: Not in a thousand years.
Hannibal Lecter: "Not in a thousand years"... That's my girl.

Morbid as this sounds, but I love the twisted romance between Hannibal Lecter and Clarice Starling..

I seek, Therefore I am.

“Give me some sunshine, give me some rain, give me another chance, I want to grow up once again!!”

Keith Zetterstrom.

numb...

He shall be mine.

I know that God will not ever give me more than I can handle; I just wish that God didn't trust me so much. ~ Mother Teresa

"Romance is not a feasible option"?

"Claire Colburn: Sadness is easier because its surrender. I say make time to dance alone with one hand waving free."

"I hurt as bad as the day you died."

La raison du plus fort est toujours la meilleure.

Why is he always wearing a purple shirt every time I see him?

I have the desire and inner strength to achieve my goal.

"We're all so connected, I desperately wish we knew it."

Simple wish waits for reply

What if someday there came a tomorrow when we were apart? –Christopher Robin

no matter what foolishness he is doing, he is doing it around you.

"God doesn't make mistakes."

I sat there and stared at you
You didn't seem to mind
The awkward ways we meet

my next boy will be nothing like my ex boy.

Vouloir, c'est pouvoir.

Il n'y a que les montagnes qui ne se rencontrent jamais.

"The early bird gets the worm. FINE! I don't want the worm."

I want to have Zac Efron's babies.

One of the BEST Motivational Videos I've ever seen!

Bethany Hamilton: But what am I suppose to do now?
Tom Hamilton: I don't know...
Bethany Hamilton: Then how am I suppose to know?
Tom Hamilton: When the times right you'll know. You just have to listen.
Bethany Hamilton: Listen for what?
Tom Hamilton: For whatever comes next.

I hope and I pray.

somebody somewhere

"The world spins every moment of every day...

and yet, I continue to stand so still—frozen—in the same place."

omellete au fromage

Now you're just somebody that I used to know.

 

Made by yours truly.:)

Listening to Lose Yourself on the first day of 2012!