I have this theory:

"Sometimes the things that you are afraid of are actually the most worthwhile."

No actually Arvin taught me that.

Do you feel Christmas?


I don't.


The decos are up, Christmas songs are played, Gingerman cookies are sold, people are wearing Santa’s hats. But i. can’t. feel. it.


I just can’t.


With all of these christmasy neccesities, it just somehow feels…… fake.


It’s like, eh? WTF are the Christmas trees doing here?


Maybe time really flies and i can’t accept the fact that Christmas is around the corner again.


Christmases are all the same. Why can’t i feel it this time around? Maybe it’s still early? Maybe the weather is not right? Maybe i have no plans for celebrations yet?


I wanna go somewhere. Anywhere but just here.. It may still feel lonely, but it’s a kind of beautiful loneliness. I don’t need to do anything special. Just walking around, listening to Jack's Mannequin, and feel it.


It’s some happening loneliness. And that is beautiful.


Really wanted to go somehwere too for this year’s Xmas. Hongkong or something. But i guess i’ll have to stay..

The World is like a Carousel. It goes round and round— With or Without you.

if there's a will there's a way..

*sigh*

Green Day almost had it right with their song Wake Me Up When September Ends.

The real painful month is November.

16 years of existence ...