I have this theory:

"Sometimes the things that you are afraid of are actually the most worthwhile."

No actually Arvin taught me that.

Do you feel Christmas?


I don't.


The decos are up, Christmas songs are played, Gingerman cookies are sold, people are wearing Santa’s hats. But i. can’t. feel. it.


I just can’t.


With all of these christmasy neccesities, it just somehow feels…… fake.


It’s like, eh? WTF are the Christmas trees doing here?


Maybe time really flies and i can’t accept the fact that Christmas is around the corner again.


Christmases are all the same. Why can’t i feel it this time around? Maybe it’s still early? Maybe the weather is not right? Maybe i have no plans for celebrations yet?


I wanna go somewhere. Anywhere but just here.. It may still feel lonely, but it’s a kind of beautiful loneliness. I don’t need to do anything special. Just walking around, listening to Jack's Mannequin, and feel it.


It’s some happening loneliness. And that is beautiful.


Really wanted to go somehwere too for this year’s Xmas. Hongkong or something. But i guess i’ll have to stay..

The World is like a Carousel. It goes round and round— With or Without you.

if there's a will there's a way..

*sigh*

Green Day almost had it right with their song Wake Me Up When September Ends.

The real painful month is November.

16 years of existence ...

The only permanent thing in the world is change.

CHANTAL KREVIAZUK

"In This Life"

Let me show you what I'm made of

Good intentions are not enough

To get me though today and this life.

You're in the basement watching the TV,

I'm on the second floor watching the ceiling.

We sleep underneath the same big sky at night.

I dream the same dream we can fly

You can run from me

You can hide from me

But I am right beside you

In this life.

Let me tell you who you really are

You're my comfort

You're not a superstar

I can reach up and bring you back down to the ground

And give you everything you dream about

You can run from me

You can hide from me

But I am right beside you

In this life.

I'll give you all the things that I never get

Give you all I have and have no regret

Take you to the places that I've never been

Forgive you all the things that you cant forget

Take away the pain with my healing hands

Wash away your sins and set your spirit free

You can run from me

You can hide from me

But I am right beside you

In this life.

Let me show you what I'm made of

Promises aren't meant to be broken. If you break a promise over a stupid decision like that, it just shows that you don't have the balls to keep your promise.

I'm better of alone anyway

Emotion Sickness.....

Dear Whoever...

If I'd stop lying.

...

.......

...

I'd just disappoint you.

Every song has an ending..

but that's not a reason not to enjoy the music...ü

*yawn*

soo bored..

Jack and Jill went up the hill to suck and fuck each other.

Stupid Jill forgot her pill so Jack became a father.

*bow*

Well I broke the computer and you didn't! .... awww crap.

haha, I just broke the computer!

I just restarted the computer. This turned out to be a bad move, because when the system restarted, I can't logged on because windows/system32 or something can't be found. So there I was staring at the Windows backdrop and nothing else wondering how to get out of this one.. so my dad brought it the store to fix it.. and i broke the computer... again..

it's kinda stupid really.

Lies Hurt People


Liars often behave in subtly abnormal ways because they are under unusual emotional strain and mental stress to make the lie sound believable, and it's these abnormalities that can give them away.


For example, a liar might be nervous about lying, or angry about the truth. These emotions are difficult to hide, and might reveal themselves in nervous tapping of the feet, or clenched fists.


A liar often tries to suppress behaviour that they think might give away their deception, which is why, liars will probably look you in the eye rather than looking at the floor, and try to avoid making what they think are irrelevant movements with their hands and fingers.

"Never leave the one you love for the one you like because the one you like will leave you for the one they love."

--Janea' Thomas

I will promise myself I won't care.

Distracting myself from your stare..

truth is.. everyone's just gonna hurt you.. you just have to decide, who's worth the pain...

Ah. How time does fly when having fun. Or, in my case, when having a nervous breakdown. In some cases it's hard to discern between the two. But this time, i'm sure it was a breakdown. Because it wasn't fun.

Just because my eyes don't tear, doesn't mean my heart doesn't cry...

Just because i come out strong doesn't mean there's nothing wrong.
Often, i chose to pretend i'm happy so i don't have to explain myself to people who would never understand.

Smiling has always been easier than explaining why i'm sad.. ='s

sometimes it's better to be alone...

....

nobody can hurt you..

i love you even if you are an ass..

You don't have to tell me what you're feeling, I know what you're going through.. I won't be the one that lets go of you. I'll be there for you. Don't have to be alone with what you're going through.

i miss you computer!

*hugs computer screen*

hehe... ^_^

if trees could talk...

If trees could talk what would they say?

Would they tell you everything that they had seen?

The Killers

are back and with their new album Sam's Town. I see the dudes heavily influenced by classic rock. I see dudes that are going to make themselves even bigger this year. Facial hair is so hot right now.

When faced with tragedy, illness or some other unfortunate occurrance that happens along the way in this thing called life.. you have three types of people. People who care. People who just don't. And people who pretend they care.

When someone you know is going through a difficult time - - do them a big favor. Don't utter these words: "Please let me know if there is something I can do to help." unless you really mean it. 9 times out of 10 - that person isn't going to call on you to do something to help . . but they just might... and if you've a shred of integrity in your body, you'll step up to the plate, if it's someone you really care about.

Without going into a bunch of messy details that wouldn't be fair to the people who are intimately involved - I have only to say this - - yes, there is something you can do to help.
Stop pretending like there is something you want to do to help.

It's not fair to give someone the false illusion that you are a person that they can turn to when despair has hit the wall. They may turn to you as an utter last resort - and then fall into empty space when those arms aren't there to catch them, as they expected them to be.

Do yourself, and everyone involved, the favor of just saying nothing at all.

"Dont take life too seriously...After all, no one has gotten out of it alive."

sing me something soft,

sad and delicate,

or loud and out of key..

sing me anything...

Most likely. You know what they say about beautiful men. It's either they're taken or they're gay.

spare me just three last words

"i love you" is all she heard

i'll wait for you, but i can't wait forever

.::Sexy Back::.

I'm bringin' sexy back

Them other boys they don't know how to act

I think it's special... what's behind your back

So turn around and and I'll pick up the slack

-Bridge-

Dirty Babe

You see these shackles baby I'm your slave

I'll let you whip me if I misbehave

It's just that no one makes me feel this way

( take it to the chorus)

-Chorus-

Come here girl, go head be gone with it

Come to the back, go head be gone with it

VIP, drinks on me

Lemme see what you're twerking with

Look at those hips

Make me smile

Go 'head child and get your sexy on

I'm bringin' sexy back

Them other fuckers don't know how to act

Girl let me make up for all the things you lack

Because you're burning up I got to get it fast

(Take it to the bridge)

( take it to the chorus)

I'm bringin' sexy back

you mother fuckers watch how I attack

If that's your girl, baby watch your back

Cuz you're burning up for me and that's a fact

The importance of something is seen when it's done. The worth of someone is realized when that person is gone. For it will always be a mystery that we realize the essence when it's already a memory.

sometimes not all we wanted is given to us.. like the ideal person to be with.. it may not turn out the way we expected, but at the end you'll see that what you have, is better than what you wanted..

Girl Next Door

Small town homecoming queen

She's the star in this scene

There's no way to deny she's lovely

Perfect skin, perfect hair

Perfumed hearts everywhere

Tell myself that inside she's ugly

Maybe I'm just jealous

I can't help but hate her

Secretly I wonder if my boyfriend wants to date her

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band

She is a cheerleader I'm sitting in the stands

She gets the top bunk I'm sleeping on the floor

She's Miss America and I'm just the girl next door

Senior class president

She must be heaven sent

She was never the last one standing

A backseat debutaunt

Everything that you want

Never to harsh or too demanding

Maybe I'll admit it

I'm a little bitter

Everybody loves her but I just wanna hit her

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band

She is a cheerleader I'm sitting in the stands

She gets the top bunk I'm sleeping on the floor

She's Miss America and I'm just the girl next door

Oh and I'm just the girl next door

I don't know why I'm feeling sorry for myself

I spend all my time wishing that I was someone else

She is the prom queen I'm in the marching band

She is a cheerleader I'm sitting in the stands

I get a little bit, she gets a little more

She's Miss America and... she's Miss America

I'm just the girl next door...

For every second.. 79 stars explode. What are the chances, that the sun will be next? life can be so short, so let me say.. "thank you for crossing my way..."

All my life I've been looking for something to satisfy and make me happy, You know it's right when they say that happiness can be found in the simplest things... and I found it in 7 letters... "Friends"

Let's flip a coin.. heads- we'll be friends forever.. tails-we'll flip again..

Nobody tells the fish to swim, birds to fly, cows to moo, dogs to bark ..they just do.. just like nobody tells me to care for you I just do.. c",

----Bianca

......

...........

...and she was gone... :C

Absence makes the heart grow fonder, or something like that?

If it is, it's totally stupid. Absence doesn't make my heart grow fonder. Absence makes me grow annoyed.

You shut your mouth. How dare you say. I go about things the wrong way. I am human and I need to be loved. Just like everybody else does.

I can't believe I was friends with her.... that said I'd like to hire you to kill her, or at least injure her enough that she can't go to school..

Everyday I wonder,

what is my purpose in life?

. . . I'm starting to realize that we live in order to change someone else's life.

I Got Wet.

Damn, I got wet, not just me but Arvin as well.. stupid fucking car.

It's a crime you let it happen to me out of mind, I love it, easy to please nevermind, forget it, just memories all the pain inside a spiral notebook..

just send away

please let me stay

coming your way..

how can I believe when this cloud hangs over me

you're a part of me that I don't wanna see...

I miss my mom... T-T

life is unfair and it happens everyday be it old age, sickness, or a mission. If life was fair everyone would live forever with each other in peace, never worrying about the short-time we have with each other... But, someone once told me that once we do die we do live in a fair world where everyone does live forever without the worry of death.

Well I say bring on the regrets..

As long as you get to keep the good memories too...

When I fall in love I take my time. There's no need to hurry when I'm making up my mind...

Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up. These are the best days of our lives. The only thing that matters is just following your heart, And eventually, you'll finally get it right.

Nothing bad has happened lately. It's weird, but alright. I better not jinx it. Things just go bad when I think about them too much, I guess.

I'm thinking about becoming a nun.

Hah, my mom told me I could travel and stuff if I were a nun. That's kinda cool...but I would be doing it for all the wrong reasons.

I'm hungry.

I'm bored.

I complain to much.

I don't care.

You Are My Sunshine

My only sunshine.

You make me happy

When skies are grey.

You'll never know, dear,

How much I love you.

Please don't take my sunshine away...

You know, if you separate the first three letters of 'therapist' from the others, it looks like 'the rapist'?

"That's the thing about sacrifice - sometimes, when you think you're losing something, you're really just passing it on to someone else."

- The Five People You Meet in Heaven

Half the night I waste in sighs,

Half in dreams I sorrow after

The delight of early skies;

In a wakeful dose I sorrow

For the hand, the lips, the eyes,

For the meeting of the morrow . . .

OUT of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be,
For my unconquerable soul,

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced or cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed
Beyond this place of wrath and tears

Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years

Finds, and shall find, me unafraid
It matters not how strait the gate,

How charged with punishments is the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

~~William Henley Invictus~~

Lucas: 'Society is a masked ball, where everyone hides his real character, then reveals it by hiding.'

For some unexplainable reasons, I had hated those heart throb actors... they were all faking things. Fake... is connected to rumors, rumors are connected to lies, lies are connected to liars.

I hate liars.

IT'S A STRANGE DESIRE...

BUT AN INFLICTING WOUND.

that school is badluck..... i'm never going back there again.

i passed all subjects...

hellz yeah! X)

oOOoowWwWw... my ankle hurts...

stupid stairs...

April Fools Day....

A tiny part of me will leave with you...

...And a little bit of you will stay

[ Necrophilia - is an erotic attraction to corpses, with the most common motive cited by psychologists as the attempt to gain possession of an unresisting or nonrejecting partner. ]

when I die i don't want some freak touching me..

eewww... most of them are mortuary worker.. yuck!!!

does love end when life does?

This is your life, are you who you want to be?

Yesterday me and my friends went to this store called "YesterYear." It's a music gallery of the old songs from Elvis, Beetles, Air Supply, John Lennon, Paul McCartney... even opms. From records to tapes.. cd's... whatever you name it. It's pretty nice-even if the place smells like old people.

I had this feeling of nostalgia when I was in that place. I get the same feeling of nostalgia that I get when I watch Power Rangers.

I'm not angry at my mom anymore... sometimes I say things I don't mean. Everyone does. I never meant it. I was just so angry...

I hate my mom!

I hate my mom so much!!! she is so annoying and bothers me like no other. This morning when I woke up - she asked me to go to school to finish my clearance, and I just ignored her and got to my room then locked my door. And then she starts yelling and screaming at me. And then she says that from this point on we have nothing to do with each other. She told me that I need help and that im a bitch she can't stand and that she wants to get away from me as fast as she can! I HATE HER SO MUCH - SHE CAN BE SOO HURTFUL! I can't wait till she gets out of my life! And she expects me to just be all happy and just after she says all these horrible things to me - then she asks me, so are you going to stop school again?

figures... it's better if i'll just ignore her.

I HATE YOU MOM - YOU RUIN MY LIFE!

NBSB

No Boyfriend Since Birth... T_T

Hey everyone,

Things in my life have been nucking futs lately, and it's just getting worse as I endure each and everyday at the hell I call my school. So, long story short, I hate my school and my teacher treats me like cat doodoo, so I'm in the process of looking for a new school to save what little sanity I have.

Cartman's Psalm

[ Do The Handicapped Go To Hell? - #410 ]

It's a man's obligation to stick his

boneration in a woman's separation.

This sort of penetration will increase the

population of the younger generation.

I hate perverts.

I love you has eight letters. As does bullshit.

bLoOdY bOrEd....

I get to sit beside a cute guy on my way home
*blush*
he's soooo cute....